Sunday, August 14, 2016

Help. Thanks. Wow.

On the plane ride to Haiti I read Anne Lamott's Help Thanks Wow: The Three Essential Prayers. I really enjoyed the quick read and gained a lot from it. Sometimes I make prayer such a scary or cumbersome thing - like I don't know the right words to say and I don't sound elloquent when I actually muster the courage to pray aloud. I have no problem praying alone during my quiet time each morning, but in front of others? I'd rather move my classroom in and out of Elevation church every week (haha!). Lamott writes that asking for "Help" is the first great prayer. She talks about how giving "Thanks" is essential, not only when things are going well, but when we are faced with hard truths and tough challenges. "Wow" is the joyful expression of wonder in response to astonishing moments great and small. What more do we need? I like these three words. They are comforting to me.

When I heard the news three weeks ago, I immediately thought of this simple prayer. Over a year ago we ALL started to pray, "HELP!" after visiting Jonatas' orphanage, just down the street from where I stayed last summer.

If you weren't able to follow my journey last summer, or in case you don't remember the specifics, here's an excerpt from my initial reaction/reflection after visiting the first time:
7/1/15
Haiti Day 12
After loading up with food supplies we headed to the orphanage. It was truly one of the most horrific and heartbreaking things I've ever experienced. It was run by 3 very ungodly men. These criminals had not only been deported from the United States, but actually escorted out and told to never return. These orphans are not true orphans. They have at least one parent still living. The leader of the 3 men ("Jonatas" is his name) will dress up in nice clothes, borrow a nice car, and wear jewelry to go out to some rural villages of Haiti. Rural villages tend to be some of the poorest people who have absolutely nothing. They have no clothes, no food, no water. Anyway, this man "Jonatas" will go out to these villages and tell parents this wonderful story of how he has this home for children, promising a better life for their children than they can provide, offering nutritious food, water, education, shelter, etc. Parents send their children with him because they want a better life for their kids...they don't know the truth about the situation these children live in. The children were between the ages of 2 and 14 with the 14 year old most likely "transitioning" out soon...being kicked out to fend for himself on the streets. These men use these children for their own gain. They send people back to America with this sad story of all these orphans who need help, and Americans send money...thousands and thousands of dollars worth. These men pocket the majority of this money, putting hardly any of it toward food or needs for the children. It is assumed that they lock the children in the overcrowded, bunk-filled bedrooms with a prison-type cell door at night and leave them until morning (or whenever they decide to return to let them out). This broken down building only has half of a roof and no running water (which means no bathroom of any type and no place to bathe). The team brought a ton of toys and activities to play with the kids, and Frank told us that the men will more than likely take all the toys after we left and sell them. Along with the food we brought from the Depot...he said the kids MIGHT see 2-3 meals max (we brought a total of 110 POUNDS of rice) and then the rest of the food would be sold. These children aren't even able to be adopted...I think the hardest part of the entire experience was seeing, holding, and playing with these precious children of God who were dirty beyond description, wearing such dirty shirts...many lacked bottoms of any kind...so it was seeing that and knowing that there was nothing I could do for them but pray, it was especially hard for the ones that clung to me and didn't want to be put down. The second hardest part was being in the presence of those men, knowing how evil they are. Not only being in their presence, but being in their presence without judgment. And loving them. And having conversations with them. We are called to love the unlovable. I can't quite picture anyone more unlovable in my opinion. We are called to hate the sin, not the sinner. God loves them just as much as He loves you and me. That was hard. Not to judge. Not to hate. But to try and love them like Jesus does. 

Brittany Fairbanks, who attended the June all-women's team, blogged about it and it went viral. It still seemed too helpless, knowing that authorities had visited and were given money to turn their heads and hide their eyes from the awful circumstances. It seemed too big. Too messy. Too awful. It was literally Hell on Earth.

Visit Brittany's original blog post here (a MUST-READ): https://brittanyannfairbanks.wordpress.com/2015/07/07/hell-on-earthheaven-on-earth/

After recapping that experience through email and sharing Brittany's blog, my aunt shared Psalm 10 with me. It provided some comfort, in knowing God sees the children, hears them, encourages them, and defends them. But I wanted answers. I wanted to know the answer to "Why?" I wanted to take every child out of that "orphanage" that day. Even with no place to go and no plan, I knew they'd be better off without that evil man. I was angry. These words of Psalm 10 helped:


Why, Lord, do you stand far off?
Why do you hide yourself in times of trouble?
In his arrogance the wicked man hunts down the weak,
who are caught in the schemes he devises. 
He boasts about the cravings of his heart;
he blesses the greedy and reviles the Lord.
In his pride the wicked man does not seek him; 
in all his thoughts there is no room for God.
His ways are always prosperous;
your laws are rejected by him;
he sneers at all his enemies.
He says to himself, "Nothing will ever shake me."
He swears, "No one will ever do me harm."
His mouth is full of lies and threats; 
trouble and evil are under his tongue. 
He lies in wait near the villages; 
from ambush he murders the innocent.
His eyes watch in secret for his victims;
like a lion in cover he lies in wait. 
He lies in wait to catch the helpless;
he catches the helpless and drags them off in his net.
His victims are crushed, they collapse; 
they fall under his strength.
He says to himself, "God will never notice; 
he covers his face and never sees."
Arise, Lord! Lift up your hand, O God.
Do not forget the helpless. 
Why does the wicked man revile God?
Why does he say to himself,
"He won't call me to account"?
But you, God, see the trouble of the afflicted;
you consider their grief and take it in hand. 
The victims commit themselves to you;
you are the helper of the fatherless.
Break the arm of the wicked man;
call the evildoer to account for his wickedness
that would not otherwise be found out.
The Lord is King for ever and ever;
the nations will perish from his land.
You, Lord, hear the desire of the afflicted;
you encourage them, and you listen to their cry,
defending the fatherless and the oppressed,
so that mere earthly mortals
will never again strike terror.

One of the hardest realizations, beyond my heartbreak for the children, was the fact that this man, Jonatas, deserves just as much forgiveness and grace as I do. I still struggle with that.

So, back to the beginning thought of this post...we cried out, "HELP!" Well, Frank received an email telling him that IBESR had gone in, removed all children from Jonatas' place, and RETURNED THEM TO THEIR FAMILIES. Not only does this call for a "THANKS!" but also a "WOW!" I couldn't wait to share the news with everyone who followed my journey last year, and bring light to the situation for those who didn't follow along. All praises to God! I'm so thankful for Frank who brought team after team by this place. I'm so thankful for Brittany for being vulnerable and courageous enough to put it out to the world on her blog, which got attention from people all around the world. God worked through the two of them, along with many authorities to put an end to this man's corruption. Hallelujah!

Kalipso was able to go over to the location of this previous "orphanage" twice to check things out this past week. Both times there was a lock on the outside of the gate. He didn't see anyone inside and didn't hear anything. When he talked to the neighbors they told him the orphanage was not there anymore and they didn't really want to explain anything to him. At this point we don't know where Jonatas is or what he's doing, but that may not be something anyone is able to find out for awhile. For now, I want to say "Thanks! Wow!" to God for getting this place shut down and the kids returned to their families and I want to pray that he has not moved to a new location and started another "orphanage" by seeking out other children from different areas/different families. Since God loves BOLD prayer, I would also pray that Jonatas has completely turned from his evil ways and has come to know Christ as Lord and Savior. Will you pray with me?

According to https://wearelumos.org/, there are 8 million children worldwide that are living in institutions because they are poor, disabled, or from an ethnic minority. Institutionalization denies children individual love and care and can damage their brain development and destroy their understanding of right and wrong. Of the 8 million children in institutions, more than 90% are NOT ORPHANS. Most have families who love them and want them! This is a violation of their human rights and the effects last a lifetime. One study found that young adults raised in institutions are 10 times more likely to be involved in prostitution than their peers, 40 times more likely to have a criminal record, and 500 times more likely to take their own life.

Will you pray boldly with me for this to end worldwide?

Friday, August 12, 2016

Summing Up the Last Two Weeks...

Typically, we would send teams out on Friday mornings and have Friday afternoons/evenings and Saturday mornings to reset, reload, relax. Between the last two groups there was not any rest - in fact there was one day of overlap, having both teams in Haiti, staying at two different locations! Talk about crazy!

When we went out to Chambon/Valley of Hope for church two Sundays ago, Pastor Maxeau told us about a revival that would be happening at the end of the month, with meetings, prayer, and evangelizing in the community. He told us that 90-95% of the church's members used to practice voodoo before accepting Christ!

We did another sponsorship update out at Valley of Hope and added new kids to the program as well. We got through about 160 kids on Monday. There was a "store" full of free clothing, shoes, socks, undergarments, etc. for the parents to come pick out items. I got to connect with a lot of the moms from church, which was really neat. I've felt a strong connection with the kids for many weeks, but the parents don't always hang around after church, so I was thankful for the time I got to spend with them! It rained on and off all throughout the day which made some things tricky. There were also many more kids than Ashley (the sponsorship coordinator) had originally planned for, so in the midst of the rain, copies needed to be made and there's a crazy wiring-up-a-generator-in-the-rain-to-run-copies story. The things we take for granted are endless...

Tuesday we got to spend most of the day out at the Olympic Training Center. I had been out there many times and learned all about the program and knew which buildings held which sports/activities...but had never been inside until last Tuesday! What a neat experience! The team played a soccer game, USA vs. Haiti. I was content sitting on the sidelines watching! :) The winds that day were SO STRONG, effects of the big storm that came by. We got to interact with the kids, play some sports, take a tour, and more!

Wednesday we spent the afternoon out at SportDisciple. I think I briefly spoke about SD in a previous post. I have such a neat story to share! When the Bradford team was here in mid-July they brought a good amount of soccer balls that were deflated and placed in a special donation bin for SD. We hadn't gotten a chance to go back out to SD since the Bradford team left, so those balls were just waiting for the next time we were heading out that way. Janice & her team (two weeks ago) brought bags upon bags of soccer balls with them also. We put all the balls together and gave them to Barrett (founder of SD) at the end of our afternoon with them. He told us about how he had 3 pastors coming in town that Saturday (3 days away) and they were desperately in need of soccer balls. He was hoping to get some ordered and shipped so they could bring them down when they came to check out the program. He pulled his phone out of his pocket and showed us his screen that was still pulled up (soccer.com) where he was looking at a set of 40 soccer balls for $500. Combining the balls Bradford brought with the balls Janice's team brought, the total was almost EXACTLY the 40 he was going to order. Barrett smiled and said, "God is never late, sometimes early, but ALWAYS on time." These things are always neat to witness and/or be a part of, but I thought it was so encouraging to know that Bradford was a part of making this happen!

Thursday is when the craziness started. We spent the morning by the UN with the street vendors and toured Rebuild Globally, followed by lunch out at the OK and packing 250+ backpacks! While we were eating and packing backpacks with school supplies, Frank went to pick up the YBM guys (and YBW ladies) from the airport. Once we finished packing the backpacks and reorganizing everything to load into the depot, we packed into the van and John's truck to head over to the Tin Market. Frank met us back at the Guest House for dinner and last night of devotions after getting all of YBM/YBW team checked into the Visa Lodge.

Friday morning we left the GH at 5 to take Janice's team to the airport, ran some errands, and headed to the Visa Lodge to pick up the YBM/YBW group and head out for the day! There were 40 people with the group, including the Men's Discipleship guys and the translators. Needless to say, there was not enough room on the canter, so we rented a school bus as means of transportation for the week. The canter held all the shoes for distributions and any other supplies we would need throughout the week.

We went up to the Baptist Haiti Mission for lunch and then continued up the mountain to do a shoe distribution. YBM/YBW partnered with Samaritan's Feet (see previous blog post from July 8th for more information) as their platform for their week in Haiti. We finished the distribution around 6 PM and didn't get to the Guest House for dinner until 8:15! Coming down the mountain, racing the darkness was quite the experience!

Throughout the week with YBM/YBW there was a lot of waiting, a lot of traffic, a lot of learning to be flexible, and a lot of challenges! It made me think back some verses John shared with us during devotions the week before (which are applicable most days):
"Consider it an opportunity for joy..." James 1:2 (NLT)
"The Lord is good to those who wait." Lamentations 3:25

We all (YBM/YBW, Josh from Samaritan's Feet, Frank, and I) packed up and headed out Tuesday afternoon and I got home a little before 1 AM. Wednesday I spent the day resting at my house, getting caught up on mail and bills, and yesterday I took off to come to the beach for a few days of rest and reflection. My heart is heavy and I am trying to process a lot. I'll be going back to school on Monday, but for the next few days, I'll spend my time just "being".